SINCERE VENGEANCE

As the darkness befallen my tomb be settle
The curse ye bestowed will never be haggle
Space ye shall not tempt diminished all that is able
Abstract of purity solemn and ever tangle

Impart my evil fiend engage my eternal bidding
Holocaust of destruction my rage shall bear no ending
Exterminate thy soul my fury never subsiding
Elevate thy fear on the sable of death I'll be riding

Abandon thy sunken life reach my hand in absolute
Sinned thee fond for love hatred will bond ye to mute
Tragedy forever sail its path into sea of interlude
Loath the road of integrity lend me ye fiddle of solitude

Wave of abandonment washes away ye bliss
Tinkering with destiny an act of foolish beast
My enemy ye shall fall on thy heart i shall feast
Enrage my insane mind thy glory shall be shattered gist.

~Ashver79~

TO BE THE PERFECT MATCH

Delirious i must say for every guy in the face of the earth to have someone to be with in good and bad times. To be accepted as who we are needless to be someone else or having a hard time to be good looking. Pretending to be someone we are not just to win the heart of some girl. For those girls out there firstly i wanna say most of us usually look for beauty first in a woman rather than anything else. As long as you are gorgeous most of us will certainly be attracted to you even you have a personality of a mentally retarded. Even if you're dead poor or even if you have a husband. Yes it's true we don't look for anything other than beauty in a woman. Totally numbing right cos usually we say to pretty girls " i like you for your personality," what a loads of crap and it's totally bullshit. It's totally just a make believe, a fairy tales for you to be swept off your feet.

But don't be alarmed just yet cos the secret is that beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. Not every man desire the one that looks like a model or a movie star. There are many type of beauty in our perceptions. And i know a friend that's totally into big girls, you know what i mean right. So not every girl that i find beautiful will have the same effect on others. But i have two best friends who are totally have the same taste as me and it's really annoying.

We who are known as the male species is a simple and easily amused creature. But this is only implies in the art of flirting and not a subject in seeking for a partner to be with the rest of our lives. In that matters we are more coherent to make a wise decisions to choose someone who is more suited in every aspect and usually we look past the beauty issue just like a bullet through a pillow case, swift and very smooth. And the first thing we prioritized in making this important decision is usually in personality. This time it's totally opposite of what i said earlier. Yes, personality is the only thing we seek in looking for a wife. If you are as beautiful as Cleopatra even but your persona is something like a character out of a chick flick(cos we guys hate chick flick movies as much as we like women asking us to stop our smoking habits) then u can say goodbyes to that chance of finding a good husband. It will be a wasted relationship which only rely on sexual drive and it won't last longer than a burning match stick.

That certainly was a long intro. So to the real deal now is how can we be in term of looking for a life partner and to find that someone to fill up the gap we have between our passion and happiness. Maybe i should venture into that matter in time to come . For all what i said in this i plead temporary insanity. And for you readers i due my apologies for wasted your precious time. Farewell for now.

A NIGHT WITHOUT YOU

IN DIMMER OF THE LIGHT I FOUND SERENITY IN HER
FULL OF JOY SHE FORSAKE ME MY UNTAMED DESIRE
A MOMENT OF SINCERE REAP MY SOUL FOREVER
ALAS MY TORMENT ASCEND TO THE FAR AND HIGHER

SHE SKIPPED MY HEARTBEATS IN TIME OF ABSENT
APART A SECOND FEELS LIKE THE WORLD OF SILENT
TREMBLE MY FINGERS ADDICTED TO HER ILLUSION
SACRED IN MY MIND GRACE OF HER BE HEAVEN

HER EYES A MORNING DEW A GLANCE OF AN ANGEL
LIPS OF SWEET POISON INTOXICATING IN EVERY ANGLE
ENGRAVED IN MY MIND YOUR FACE I WAS ABLE
PURE AND UNTOUCHED LEAVING ME INSATIABLE

March 12 at 2:59am
~ASHVER79~
(Dedicated to someone special from Singapore)

SOULMATE ENIGMA

In life there are things that we want to believe in so we can get on with our uninterested and demeaning existence. To believe that we have fate on our side to reach out for in times of need. Some people believed that each and every person in this universe is destined to have a soul mate. A better half of his/her self to complete the metamorphosis cycle of eternal happiness. So does it really exist. Of course in term of believing in fate it is a must or otherwise you'll be damn for eternally in hell. But in believing in fate one must also have effort in gaining something in life.

So whenever someone ask a person about their effort to seek for a husband or a wife and if he/she answered "I'll let the fate decide" it obviously they don't have any intention in doing so. Because fate won't come to be except we our self make an effort to lead it the way we want it to be then the rest is up to God. Then it is needless to say that when someone don't work to gain what they want then fate will stand still and laugh at the person in despise.

Forever more the question still linger in my unevolved mind does everyone have a soul mate? So i know a girl from my face book connection and she always mention this word every time her status changed. Soul mate this and that. It actually what made me write about this piece in the first place. So one night i was intrigued to ask her back what does soul mate really means and what it stand for in her unending ranting of that word about his relationship with someone. At first i thought she would just brush me off for being a busy body but it went the other way around.

She said in her reply of my message is that she is totally assured that the guy she is with now is the best for her in every way possible. Leave the rest in God's hand, never rely too much on him, a lot of patience and never ever make a haste conclusion and it all depend on our own heart desire. She tells me that she feel the bond between them like something magical and that he's the only one for her. Hmm.....like a megadeth lyrics and i quote "nice story tell it to reader's digest". Assuming that she is honest and from the words i can tell that she is, i totally envy her in so many ways. Cos to feel that bliss state is unimaginable in my existence of a lonely lad. Even so i still believe she's just a few from a billion of populations that have a perception on life as she do. The rest would be like what the hell it's not like that at all and that includes me.

Thus in conclusion i implies that there might be some who's lucky enough to be granted the unending joy in a relationship and they are more of us that felt like jumping off a roof when thinking about relationships and coexistence between different gender as a complete whole.
For all i have said above i plead temporary insanity in it and have a pleasure in enjoying life through the rest of your miserable life for us loner.

CREEPING IN DARKNESS

My life is empty a coffin of sorrow

I am a shell neither filled nor hollow
Heartbeats a race but no soul in place
Just like a carcass rotting down below

My mind in pieces disclosure my darkest secrecy
Spinning in random memories of total insanity
Seldom it lingers between truth and uncertainty
An epidemic fantasy a bend of reality

My soul is dark eclipse forged in hellish fire
A fiery lust beyond pure hatred and desire
Sinned the holy saint the wicked demon liar
Pandemonium in motion a fallen angel devour

My body is a slander to those perfect in sight
A demeaning humor a plain words what is right
Master the art of deception upon a puny heart
Sacrificed pride and dignity ye shan't find might

My emotion is scattered oblivion in personality
Evolved multiple fraction a torn in diversity
Forthcoming state of enmity havoc upon eternity
Ascend me a revelation nay shall i find true unity

~Ashver79~

FIRST DAY AT BLOG...

Greetings to all of those who got lost and found the entrance to this lair of the mad man's mind. A place where the logic of fundamental theories and basic common sense does not apply. Bare in mind you are venturing into the inner sanctum of a MAD MAN then you will get a clear picture.

This is the first time i ever enter the world of blogging. Reading a friend's blog interest me into the same path as she, to express what deep inside and to ponder what is at bay. So for those who seek the words of wisdom, you might not find it here yet the blog will be extricate and will reflect my own opinions on that matters.

I found out that everything in this world is connected via a thread that we can't see or feel. But it's there and sometimes it pulled us together and in some way bringing us closer to each other. In feelings we shall fall and the abyss of relationship is deep and hollow. We live to find what life meant to us and in walking through that path of thorny passage we need company.To find one that will be there for us in good and bad times will be like finding a specific needle in a haystack of needles. It's hard and sometimes you won't find it at all. Then comes to the part to find your other half meaning your eve to your adam's desire. That's even harder than the first one. And for some they don't have one till the rest of their lives cos it happened to someone i know.

After reading my friend's blog i found out that we the adam's heir is less complicated that those who're an eve. The way they think is way out of our comprehension. Thus the quote i heard once seems to find it's place "women are from venus and man are from mars." We are totally different lifeform and only by adjusting ourself to their desired point of liking only then you will find your way into thier fortress of guarded heart. I have ramble enuff for today i think......may i have the will to continue this journey i started.